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Topsy Turvy

“When the world turns upside down, the best thing to do is turn right along with it.” - Marry Poppins

Within a matter of days, the whole world seemed to have flipped upside down. Who knew that a pandemic was in the midst, when everything seemed to be running smoothly? For many of us, maybe things weren’t smooth, per se, but at least we could breathe outside and partake in simple creature comforts- life was “normal.”

For me, my main client of 3 years filed for bankruptcy and I struggled with unemployment while living in the mountains in California. After that drastic period, I was pulled up to Seattle - envision a cane sneaking out from the curtains and pulling the motionless actress off the stage. I had income lined up and was ready to get my life back on track with thorough excitement. I suppose I could have “sensed” that things would go awry, however, when the morning after I moved to the Pacific Northwest my Uhaul and car got stolen. All of my life disappeared. 24 emotional hours later, everything was found - minus a chair that I shouldn’t have had anymore, anyway. My world flip flopped yet again. And then the pandemic happened, which stripped away my new clients and my dream of finally living solo. Flip flop.

Throughout all of this, though, I’ve learned to settle into this reality (it helps that I have such a strong support group up here). I’ve had calm, enlightening moments - unfortunately far less often than I’ve had sour and bitter reality checks. It’s not easy adjusting to reversed gravity.

We’re living in the upside down right now. We can adjust to this environment until it’s time to flip, or we can struggle endlessly to be right side up. This inverted reality strongly reminds me of the hanged man in the tarot. Here’s this figure dangling from their foot. They’re not struggling, but have a peaceful halo around their head. How often are we reminded that certain things are out of our control, and that our constant battle to change things only wears us out? This pandemic isn’t going to last forever (or is it? It’s been almost a year. Yikes.) and for a lot of us, our inner demons have spawned. Just another thing we needed, but yes, face those demons head-on! I know exactly what it’s like to be too busy with life to even acknowledge what’s been bubbling up beneath. We finally have this opportunity to reevaluate what we hold dear, understand what’s been tormenting us (social media, anyone?), and just appreciate what we have now. In the very least, that’s what I’ve been doing to get by these days, since it’s difficult to set plans for the future.

“If we don’t want life to pass us by, while the world is swiveling around us, let’s look inwards and turn things upside down in the inner chambers of our mind. Only after reshuffling our rooted values we can look outwards, find out the fascinations of life, and rediscover ourselves, layer after layer. ― Erik Pevernagie “Try not to resist the changes that come your way. Instead let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?” ― Rumi

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